uppity

84 Days and Counting

It has been 84 days since the pandemic started impacting daily life in the US. 

It has been so much longer than that since racial discrimination has impacted daily life for POC in the US. Centuries really. Is it better than it was? I suppose that depends on how you define "better." On the surface? Yes, but there is still so much more work to be done. I am not someone who protests, but I support people who do. And as I watched our so-called president have what equates to an absolute melt-down like an overtired and extremely violent toddler, I recognized that if there is a resistance movement to protect people fleeing for their lives, I'll be a part of that. Somehow. Heh... probably shouldn't put that on line and make myself a target, but my fire is raging right now. 

As part of all of this, we've discussed buying a rifle. I've stated I am okay with this. I am more okay with it than a handgun at least. I'd be more apt to use that than a handgun. I think. Although the thought of having to use any type of gun against a human being makes me physically ill, I recognize the potential necessity of having and using a gun - to hunt game if food starts getting scarce, to defend our home from the whackados who want to take this country so far right it's frightening, to protect people being oppressed. It may not be a flaming sword of justice, but I'll wield a gun in defense of basic human decency. 

So yeah… that’s my line I guess. Racism sucks and needs to be eradicated. I understand that it probably won’t ever be – humans are assholes, yo – but we can strive to do so much better. SO. MUCH. BETTER. Be kind to each other. Offer a hand – metaphorical or otherwise – to POC to help level the playing field. Remove obstacles where we can. Recognizing excellence and quality where it exists and rewarding it. It sounds soooooooooooooo simple, but … humans are assholes and the group in power is the group that makes the rules. It’s up to us to subvert them and try to spread the power around.

As for “normal” life… My zucchini seeds are finally sprouting! I need to move at least one of them, I think. The first tomato plant I bought and thought died in that weird May freeze has resurrected itself. It already had 2 tomatoes on the vine that are ripening AND it's putting out fresh leaves. I shall henceforth call it the zombie tomato plant!

Onions and beets are growing well. Three bean plants have successfully sprouted and are starting to climb their little trellis. There are beet and arugula sprouts and fennel sprouts. The marigolds are leafing out a bit. The potatoes are growing in their bucket, but I'm seriously considering moving them into a little mound out back this weekend.

Photos tomorrow when there's light. 

We’ve expanded our bubble a teeny bit by two. I know I’m thoroughly thrilled by this for a huge host of reasons, but mostly I’m glad for the in-person interaction with trusted friends. It warms my heart.

 ****break****

 Heh… just chased a night critter off of our bird feeder. It was probably the raccoon.

:)

In the meantime, there's a lovely full moon and I need to make sure Indy has no more food to eat tonight for his dental appointment tomorrow. He's going to have a thorough cleaning and probably one or two teeth extracted. (Poor baby kitty!) I drop him off tomorrow morning at 8:45. I should get to bed.




This entry was originally posted at http://www.dreamwidth.org/12345.html. Comment here or there.
  • Current Mood
    determined determined
fire, fred

Yes, I am pissed

This has been bothering me for a few days now. I need it out of my brain and in a space that I'm relatively certain is safe. (Aren't you guys lucky?)

A few days ago I learned (asked really) what people were saying about me both here in my local group and across a broader group in the SCA. I found out that there seems to be a perception that I am arrogant and manipulative. To quote one of my best friends: Huh. I learned where the perception is coming from and I am debating on how - or even if - I should address this. I say "if" because I'm not sure if this is a current perception, if the person who started this perception still thinks this, if saying anything would make any difference, and if the people I care about agree with this perception. I'll think on it some more and maybe talk to a few trusted individuals about it. Because it does bother me that this is out there.

My advice in general is don't mistake confidence for arrogance. Don't mistake opportunity thrust upon someone as manipulation. Don't blame others for your own failures. And don't spread shit and lies about people. It's not nice.

Well damn...

My parents were supposed to come for Thanksgiving. I was thrilled and looking forward to it. I had plans that my mom and I would watch the parade Thursday morning while we drank coffee and chatted. My dad would fall asleep in the chair or regale us with their latest travel story (they were just in Florida with friends at Disney) while Casey smoked the turkey. Later my mom and I would set the table like we've done most of my life. We'd have cocktail hour. We invited some of our closest PIttsburgh friends to join us. We were going to be 9 of us... a little tight around the table, but that's what makes holidays fun. Friday we were going to go Christmas tree shopping and then maybe hit the Cathedral of Learning and maybe one of the Carnegie museums. Saturday we'd have breakfast and they would head home. That's what was what was the plan any way. Today, my dad called.

They just returned from Disney and he took my mom to Urgent Care. She had gotten sick while they were away and it's developed into pneumonia. :( Craaaaaaaaap... my sister just recovered from a really bad bout of it. My dad is sick too, but just stuffy. So they're staying home. Mom is resting, taking antibiotics and cough medicine with codeine (or something to let her sleep). They're both under offspring orders of chicken soup and OJ.

This is the sucky part about being on the other side of the state. I know there's nothing I can do really and I know they'll both be fine, but it still sucks. I'll talk to my mom tomorrow probably. I know she's probably upset too. I know my dad was. He was unusually chatty when I talked to him.

So healthy thoughts for my folks please.
  • Current Music
    random classical music
  • Tags
fire, fred

I'll give you breast cancer awareness

Right. So here's the deal. I've had a grandmother did from breast cancer. I had another who beat it when she was over 80 thirty years later, as well as several other cancers through her senior years. I have had several friends survive breast cancer. I have watched the physical, mental and emotional toll breast cancer has taken on all of these women and their loved ones. I've experienced the emotional and mental toll it took on me WATCHING them go through it and being helpless to fix it.

Don't tell me what breast cancer awareness is or is not. If I want to cover my feed in pink and participate in walks, then I'm going to do it. Every little thing that wakes people up and makes them aware, counts. Don't discount anyone's efforts to raise awareness.

Breast cancer is ugly and horrible and devastating. Deal with it how you deem fit but don't tell me how I have to deal with it or raise awareness.

And yes, this is in response to a recent trend of posts I've seen in social media showing in graphic detail what cancer physically means. You want to know what my "trigger warning" needs to be? There you go.
uppity

Changing traditions

I'm not sure how I feel about this. The compassionate side of me thinks it's a wonderful idea and loves the published plans for retiring the elephants.

The nostalgic side of me, though, has fond memories of being in awe of the elephant acts as a child and doesn't want them to leave the show.

Then there's the tradition of it. Barnum was the first American circus to have an elephant act. He bought Jumbo from the London Zoo in 1882, amid much controversy.

In the end it's a good business decision. But more than that it's a compassionate decision for the elephants.

WPXI 11 News: Ringling Bros. says circuses to be elephant-free in 3 years

To learn more about Ringling Bros. elephant conservation efforts, check out their Elephant Center web site.

Also, Emma Donohughe wrote a fantastic short story about the Jumbo controversy. It appears in her collection of short stories called
[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<a [...] http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/b007bgnsjq/ref>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]

I'm not sure how I feel about this. The compassionate side of me thinks it's a wonderful idea and loves the published plans for retiring the elephants.

The nostalgic side of me, though, has fond memories of being in awe of the elephant acts as a child and doesn't want them to leave the show.

Then there's the tradition of it. Barnum was the first American circus to have an elephant act. He bought <a href="http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jumbo">Jumbo from the London Zoo in 1882, amid much controversy.</a>

In the end it's a good business decision. But more than that it's a compassionate decision for the elephants.

<a href="http://www.wpxi.com/ap/ap/entertainment/ringling-bros-says-circuses-to-be-elephant-free-in/nkPsK/">WPXI 11 News: Ringling Bros. says circuses to be elephant-free in 3 years</a>

To learn more about Ringling Bros. elephant conservation efforts, check out their <a href="http://www.elephantcenter.com">Elephant Center</a> web site.

Also, Emma Donohughe wrote a fantastic short story about the Jumbo controversy. It appears in her collection of short stories called <a href=""http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B007BGNSJQ/ref=mp_s_a_1_6?qid=1425648821&sr=8-6&pi=AC_SX110_SY165_QL70&keywords=emma+donoghue><i>Astray</i></a>. I highly recommend the whole book, but especially that story.
uppity

Letting things go

There's a lot in the news and on the web lately about decluttering and shedding oneself of stuff. I started doing this while we were packing. I plan on continuing to do it too.

I will admit that some things I'm still holding on to - yarn, fiber, BPAL - and will likely still collect. But other things - books, fabric, clothes, even shoes! - have been easier to release into the wild. Anything still in good condition has been donated. Anything torn, broken, or ridiculously out of date has been trashed. And OMG was that hard! But the more I did it, the easier it got.

The next thing for me to tackle are mementos. Little things that don't take up space, but that have a special meaning to me. Photos and video tapes, even old letters and cards, are easy. I can get digital copies made and they're easily stored. But things like theater programs, brochures, trinkets... things still with meaning to me... those are harder. If anyone has a creative idea for that stuff, let me know!

Interesting tidbit: there are mementos I was holding on to that no longer have meaning. Those have been released into the wild for others to enjoy.

Letting go does feel good!

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-31051632
cameo

Well lookit that...

... my LJ still exists... huh...

I've been away for quite a while. I started a new job at the end of 2012 and while it's a definitely career builder, it's exhausting and usually the last thing I want to do when I get home is stare at a computer screen for another 3 hours. But then I found myself staring at FB and G+ on my phone for hours... and ... yeah... not productive at all. So here I am, back on LJ.

Collapse )Anyway... that's what's up with me for now. Hopefully, I'll make writing in LJ more of a habit again. I'm hoping that it will spark my writing muse, too. I miss writing.
dreaming

Full Moon Dreams

The full moon is coming. I dreamt of angels, and male friends kissing male friends, and men kissing me, and stuff being pulled out of my body and... I suppose I should be upset, or consider at least that last dream a nightmare, but it didn't feel that way. It felt like a release, a letting go. I feel energized this morning and it's a good thing. :)

Good morning, World! :)
uppity

Word Demons

Word Demons

Words swirling, spinning, dancing
Bright as cherry blossoms
Elusive, ephemeral, empty
Thought colliding with idea
Idea crashing into concept
Theory fragmenting against
Reality
Harsh, brittle, sharp-edged
Words demanding meaning
Form and shape, while the world
Reels again in the dark
Lashing at the
Demons
We created.

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.